not today, Satan

my mind is extra loud this week.

I am so glad Payten and I get to spend this week together learning and growing. I consider Payten and I to have been uniquely blessed by God. We have not had the easiest time in high school. We have had to hurt deeply, and more importantly learn to rely fully on the Lord for healing.

We are at IMPACT in Nashville, Tennessee, and the truths of the Lord are being sang over me and resonating and reverberating throughout my mind, and Satan is threatened. my joy is full in Jesus, and my heart has been healed over the past year, and Satan is threatened. I am confident, and I will boast in the goodness of God, and because of these things, Satan is threatened.

Worship has been a lovely time of having the truths of God’s word sung over me and 2,000 other teens.

the bad thing is though, when Satan feels threatened, he attacks. “Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.” (1 peter 5:8) he is smart, and he likes to attack our weakest places, where we won’t be able to defend ourselves. So, just when I was feeling great, confident, bold, and whole in the Lord, I felt like I had been covered by this huge blanket of shame at the beginning of this week. I felt weighed down by heavy bricks of guilt for which I knew I had already received forgiveness from God.

“Those who look to the Lord for help will be radiant with joy! No shadow of shame will darken their faces.” Psalm 34:5

Feelings of guilt and shame were flooding my mind and combatting the truths of God so sweetly being sung over me. This war in my mind was so loud that I could hardly focus on the lessons thoughtfully prepared for this week. Frustrating!

I was asking questions which I knew God had already answered. The main one being: Am I really forgiven?

Satan was throwing tons of false guilt and false shame my way, and it felt so real! Real enough to where I had wavered in my faith in this truth and given Satan hold over how I feel towards my past. That is why following 1 Peter 5:8, he says, “Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith.” (1 peter 5:9)

“She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she can laugh without fear of the future” for the Lord is within her and He strengthens her. Proverbs 31

Standing firm in the Truths of God’s Word and remaining strong in my faith in Him, I can rebuke Satan and his tactics of using false guilt and shame. Not today, Satan.

Impact’s theme this year is centered around the topics of Guilt, Shame, Anxiety, and Worry, but most importantly, we are learning the freedom we have in Jesus Christ and how that looks loved out in life.

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